Can I Trust Him?
As I sit here, I mull over the conditions of His love and it overwhelms me. No condition – I mean nothing can keep Him from pursuing me! No mountain, no valley, neither death, nor sickness, nor mess ups nor failures can keep me from His love. His love for me is UNCONDITIONAL. He pursues me hard. I do not have to strive for His love or sell my body and soul for it. Nothing can separate me from Him. He loves me and I try my best to love Him too but can He be trusted. I admit; I find it so hard to trust Him at times.
So many before HIM have made promises they could not keep. They could not hold the weight of my expectations. Their lofty claims of commitment are now vapors in the wind. Forgetting them was easy because they were forgettable. I made them gods – idols if you will – with great claims and little proof. I gave them my trust. They let me down. Still, He wants me to trust Him although He knows my track record. I can be fickle.
It can be so hard at times to trust His plans and His purposes. He assures me, “Ask me and I will tell you remarkable secrets you do not know about things to come.” – Jeremiah 33:3
I crave control. I want to ensure that it goes exactly as I plan yet He whispers,
“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts and my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” – Isaiah 55: 8-9
What if I do not like HIS ways? What if His plans go against the very plans I have for my life.
He interjects, “You have many plans in your heart but My purpose is what prevails.” – Proverbs 19:21
I am indignant. I want my own way. Who can know me better than I do? He interjects, “I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb.” – Jeremiah 1:5 yet I make Him my Plan B or C or D when all my other plans fail.
He so obviously wants to be my Plan A and is jealous enough to crave the title of the only plan there is. He wants to be my only GOD. He insists, “I am the Lord; that is my name! I will not give my glory to anyone else, nor share my praise with created idols.” – Isaiah 42: 8. I apologize and say ‘I’m sorry’. My intent was not to hurt Him.
I have seen how He cares for others. I have heard these amazing stories of Him healing the blind, giving life to dead people and dead things, turning good water into great wine, truly caring for the homeless and the poor. Yet at times, I am unfazed by His power.
I question HIS intentions for me. I question HIS intentions for humanity. It grieves me at times to not always believe what I profess. I feel guilty but He is faithful even when I am faithless. I repent and I try my best to trust again. The grandeur of His handiwork awes me for a brief moment then my mind is bombarded with other things. These things stress me out. They steal my time. They sap my energy. They force me to worry and cause me to complain. Doubts assail me like volatile waves that try to submerge me into a bottomless pit of nothingness and I feel like I am unable to breathe. Yet in the distance I hear, “I will keep in perfect peace those who trust Me, all whose thoughts are fixed on Me.” – Isaiah 26:3. I need someone to save me from myself…to save me from this mess! I need help! He arrives on the scene clothed in such strength and righteousness and reminds me “I am mighty to save.” – Isaiah 63:1
He asks that I draw near to Him (James 4:8) …that I abide in Him (John 15:4)…that I stay hidden with Him (Colossians 3:3)…that I trust Him (John 14:1). He gently reminds me, “Even strong young lions grow weak and hungry but those who seek Me lack no good thing.” – Psalm 34:10. I reply, “When I am afraid, I put my trust in You.” – Psalm 56:3. He infuses me with confidence and I repeat, “In God I trust and am not afraid. What can man do to me? – Psalm 56:11
I am putting my all into this relationship: trusting, hoping, and praying that He would do just as He promised. He speaks and my heart is still. He gives peace that transcends my comprehension. He gives peace so potent it guards my heart and my mind as I remain in Him. (Philippians 4:7) He evokes thoughts of His goodness to me and His people in times past:
–>The times He displayed His power
–>The times He displayed His compassion
–> The times He made possible the impossible. He has proven Himself time and time again.
At last, He speaks so tenderly yet so clearly that my bones shudder at the power laced in each word:
“I can handle all your burdens. My yoke is easy and My burden’s light. My strength is made perfect in your weakness. I do not faint nor do I grow weary. Be still and know that I AM WHO I AM. I will be exalted among the nations. I will be exalted in the earth. I am with you and I am for you.
To trust ME with your heart is to trust ME with your hand.
I will direct your steps. Though you stumble, you will never fall because I hold your hand. I am your first love because I have loved you with an everlasting love. Do not be afraid, I am the Mighty Warrior who saves. I take great delight in you. I rejoice over you with singing.”
A lone tear escapes from my left eye and HE continues,
“A battered spirit and a heart so broken and so bruised, I will not despise. I keep track of all your sorrow and have collected all your tears in MY bottle and have recorded everyone in My book.” – (Psalm 56:8)
Let Me renew your heart. Let Me renew your mind. Let Me bring healing to your body. Let Me renew your spirit. Let Me restore great joy to you. I will not take My Holy Spirit from you. I will teach you and show you My ways. I will confide in you when you entrust Me with your all. I will be with you and I will never forsake you.
I will be your God throughout your lifetime – until your hair is white with age. I made you and I will care for you. I will carry you along and I will save you. To whom will you compare Me to? I am the way, the truth, and the life. Who is my equal? I am the Only True God (John 17:3). Do not be afraid for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name. You are mine. (Isaiah 43:1).
He has reassured me that He can be trusted. “Hide these words in your heart. Commit yourself to me wholeheartedly and to each command that I give you. Seek every opportunity to do what is right and good in my sight. Write them down and then do what is written.
Pay attention as I work, I always keep My promises.
I choose to believe Him and stand firm on HIS promises.
Do you trust Him?