The Disease To Please

Kim Speaks Up - Disease to Please

We’ve all been afflicted by this contagious disease.

Ever since I was a little girl, I had a knack for numbers and a knack for talking…out of turn most of the time. People were often impressed by how much I knew so the more they were impressed, the more I kept talking. I loved the attention. I loved the affirmation until I realized that it held me hostage from living my life. Honestly, I wanted people to like me. Read more

Dear Church, Fight For The Body Do not let them pimp out your parts!

Kim Speaks Up - Dear Church - Fight for the Body

I sat on the front row last Sunday as I usually do. My ears perked up and my body perched in my chair longing to hear what God would say to His people through the sermon. Wesley, the preacher and my husband, started his monologue. A dissertation of sorts for the next steps in the life of the church. Read more

How to Want The Hard Things

Kim Speaks - How To Want The Hard Things

Oh The Hard Things!!!

There are so many of us that feel like we are in a place of “stuckness” with God. We find ourselves questioning our identity, our place, and our purpose.

So often we come to God asking that He move heaven and earth on our behalf and make the impossible: possible yet in our minds we construct a list of terms and conditions stating what we will and will not do. Read more

Lessons Learned at 31

Kim Speaks Up - Lessons Learned at 31 #birthday #celebrate # balloons #joy #celebration #lessonslearned #life #friends #girls

Where has the time gone???

It’s my 31st Birthday today (Happy Birthday to me!)

and I am sharing some of biggest lessons learned thus far:

For all of my teens and most of my 20’s, I have felt like I had been falling behind in the goals that I set out to accomplish. I found myself falling short in many aspects of my life and banging my head against a figurative wall trying to find purpose and calling. I saw high paying jobs, mansions, dogs, babies, and the finest lifestyle in my future. If only I could skip the mire of the process and get to the end it will be all worth it…that’s until I decided to grow up. Read more

Faith is For The Birds

Faith is for The Birds (1 of 1)

Faith is for the birds….Yes I just said that! Now before you write me off – this is not a flippant remark and an attempt to discredit God. It is simply an observation.

Jesus said,

“Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” – Matthew 6:26

For the past few years, I have watched birds enjoy our backyard. Read more

What To Do When You’re Overwhelmed

Kim Speaks Up - In Over My Head - Clouds

Overwhelmed Much…

It’s Wednesday — The middle of the week and you are waiting with bated breath for the weekend hoping that the promise of the weekend can soothe the emotion of ‘too much!” Lately, life seems to be all-consuming and overwhelming and each time you try to come up for air, it seems like the current of worry and anxiety pulls you under. Read more

April Showers – May Flowers

Kim Speaks Up - April Shower/May Flowers feature pic

Hello, May! As I awake, the words of the popular 16th-century poem ring ever so clearly in my ear:

April Showers Bring May Flowers

I remember learning this during story time in nursery school and have found myself repeating it fondly every year as the season of spring is ushered in. This year has been different though. I feel as if I have lived it. The March winds were fierce and the April showers seemed incessant but this May, my prayer is for flowers. The winter season has been a hard one for me and one where I did not do much writing just a lot of feeling, thinking and crying. I experienced loss and grief that went so deep,  I felt like I was sinking into what seemed like an abyss of my tears.  Read more

A Call to Repent

Kim Speaks Up -- The I in repentance - monk hands

For the past few weeks, I have seen this verse posted multiple times in my news feed by some well meaning people in response to what is happening around the world:

“Then if my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sins and restore their land.” – 2 Chronicles 7:14

The Truth is – if our motives were to be exposed before this scripture, what is implied is this: ‘‘Ya’ll Need to Repent. America needs to repent. Folks need to repent. We need to repent.” But very rarely do we mean – “I need to repent.” We hide under the cloak of collectivism and plurals when God wants to deal with us as individuals. We deflect blame to another and become defensive when we are offended. You see, we are all responsible for the ills that we face because we have failed to take the time to deal with the “I”.

Systems are broken because they have been developed by broken people. Yes…You are I are those broken people. Broken people mess up consistently.

It is so easy to miss the blind spot in our lives while focusing on the wrongs in another. I understand that repentance takes vulnerability, transparency, and humility and it is downright hard. It is admitting that ‘I am wrong’ and seeking to choose another way– a better way, God’s way! It is only when we deal with “I” that the “We” and the “Ya’ll” can be forgiven. I need to repent daily because I have been wrong daily.

Let it be that: ‘If I who am called by God’s name will humble myself and pray and seek God’s face and turn from my wicked ways, God will hear from heaven and will forgive my sins and restore my land.’

All Things Spring – Lessons Learned From Pollen

Kim Speak Up - Hibiscus at Home

Spring is in the air and pollen…well it seems to be everywhere. I love all things spring…well except the pollen.  I love the blooms but am not of a fan of the green haze that comes with it. I love to see the cherry blossoms decorate the streets on my daily commute but grumble when my voice drops a few octaves due to sinus allergies. I crave the beauty of a spring morning despite the fact that I am so stuffed up that I cannot stop to smell the roses. I find myself saying this phrase too often: “This day would be bliss if only….”–> Seemingly harmless words that can sound like a simple desire but if not placed in check can wreck you with worry and discontentment with your current situation.

On my commute to work one morning, I heard a whisper in my heart.

Give thanks in all things for this is the will of God concerning you who belong to Christ Jesus. – 1 Thes. 5:18

This got me thinking: When was the last time I was truly grateful for a spring day — pollen and all. No ‘ifs’ nor ‘buts’… Just a simple ‘Thank you, Jesus!’ for He has made all things well. How many times do I desire to choose the beauty without the ugliness that came before it? How often do we boast about the fruit and neglect the health of the roots? How many times do I relish the comfort I presently enjoy yet neglect the fact that it was due to another’s discomfort I can enjoy it?

Kim Speaks Up - All things spring - A farmer's answer

Giving thanks in all things means that I choose to  say, ‘thank you’ for God’s provision when I have little and another has plenty. I choose to say, ‘thank you’ while I mourn the death of my grandmother while celebrating the birth of my friend’s daughter. I choose to say ‘thank you’ when my ‘no’ is another’s ‘yes’.

 Do not let your ‘but’ contradict God’s plans for another.

Know that God works all things together for his glory and our good for those who love him and are called according to His purpose.

So as I sit here and once again watch the storm clouds roll in, I am reminded that these clouds may be the answer to prayer for a farmer with  grain. So choose to not complain about the weeds in your yard. An abundance of rain can lead to an abundance of grain.