It’s been 21 years since my father passed away yet I felt from the time I was born I never knew him. I had his initials and his last name but not his heart nor his attention. Truth is: I have always wanted to be a Daddy’s girl. This has been a very sore spot in my heart that I have tried to suppress it for such a long time until now because it’s been on my mind since last night. I am furious and saddened but I must first acknowledge it before I let it go. Read more
God is a grace giver. Yet we find it oh so hard to receive this grace. Not because of Him but because of us. Our ego, broken hearts, disbelief, shame, failures, guilt, rejection, self-hatred, inhibit us from truly receiving this divine gift of grace that chases and outruns us. Read more
I sat on the front row last Sunday as I usually do. My ears perked up and my body perched in my chair longing to hear what God would say to His people through the sermon. Wesley, the preacher and my husband, started his monologue. A dissertation of sorts for the next steps in the life of the church. Read more
There are so many of us that feel like we are in a place of “stuckness” with God. We find ourselves questioning our identity, our place, and our purpose.
So often we come to God asking that He move heaven and earth on our behalf and make the impossible: possible yet in our minds we construct a list of terms and conditions stating what we will and will not do. Read more
It’s Wednesday — The middle of the week and you are waiting with bated breath for the weekend hoping that the promise of the weekend can soothe the emotion of ‘too much!” Lately, life seems to be all-consuming and overwhelming and each time you try to come up for air, it seems like the current of worry and anxiety pulls you under. Read more
‘If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing.If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.’ – 1 Corinthians 13: 1-3Read more
Love is releasing what is good for God’s best. It is believing no plan you have concocted for you and those you love is superior to His ways. It is reminding your soul to constantly put your hope in Jesus even when you heart is truly aching. It is the ability to grasp onto to Joy for strength when all you want to do is curl up in the fetal position and cry your eyes out. I knew this day would come, I hoped it would be 20 more years from now.
My life is a book in which God daily writes the chapters according to His table of contents. Story after story point to his unending faithfulness. A spiritual journey…trailed to an island off the coast of Venezuela. Born to island parents and dedicated in a small church on the island of Trinidad. Church was my niche and comfort zone. I spent years nuzzled on my mother’s lap drifting into sweet slumber while the minister proclaimed the good news. My peers enlisted me as the vice president of the “pew warming” ministry branding me as the enigma of docile Christianity. Despite my apparent slumber and aversion to the pastor’s monotone voice, God’s word was being firmly rooted into the depths of my heart. One day my life catapulted into a series of events that would forever change my ambitions. Read more
As I sit here in the midst of invoices, I have an urge to speak up. It’s a deep seeded desire to speak up for those who are in the midst of storms in their lives. It’s the need to encourage those who feel like they have no voice. It’s for those who have lost their voices due to daily cries for help. You may be in a storm — the kind where you feel like you only have two choices 1.) let the current from the waves move you to the unknown of your present situation or 2.) sink into the abyss of nothingness – the numb feeling of succumbing to a fate you have tried for so long to avoid but it becomes that menace. You know the parasite that is hard to get rid of.
Where ever you go it seems like problems pursue you. You long for peace from the headache, the heart ache, and the hurt. You long for escape from the broken promises and unmet expectations….from the times you said you would not do it again only to find your self mingled in a toxic cocktail of sin and secrets.