I live with it. I sleep with it. I eat with it. I work with it. I cuddle and caress it and rarely do I confront it. You know–The enemy within.
The lies created in the septic places of my heart. The lies spewed about me that seem to bombard my mind. Each an intentional gesture whose goal is to distract me, distort truth, and ultimately plan my destruction.
As I take time to reflect on all that I have done and all that I wanted to do, I realize that there are many aspirations to I wanted to accomplish that I talked myself out of. I formulated excuses of every kind and variable to squash the dreams that I had for myself and those I knew God had for me. It went something like this:
- You are not smart enough.
- You are not pretty enough.
- You are not connected enough.
- You have no special talents.
- Who’s going to listen to you?
- Your resources are limited.
- Your friends and family will disapprove.
- You’re wasting time.
- It’s too hard.
- You’re too big.
- You’re too short.
- You are not enough.
- You are not worthy of LOVE
My mind waged war against me and frankly I thought it was winning, I shirked back into a corner and stayed. I did nothing. I ebbed and flowed and adapted to whatever came my way. I did not take initiative, rarely gave my opinion, and cried myself a river…Yes, I hosted my very on pity party and all were invited. I focused on everything I did not have and all the things that I did wrong. I ignored the things that I had, the gifts that I received, and the awesome community surrounding me. I believed the lies to be truth.
I denied that I too was valuable…that I was indeed special.
Daily, we steer at our reflection in the mirror and we pick on ourselves. We identify each imperfection and spend an exorbitant amount of time and resources trying to fix them or change them. We become our greatest critic. Who we are today never seems to be enough. We strive for approval. We strive for acceptance. We strive for love…..YES …LOVE!
We manipulate in ways to ensure that someone will look at us….someone will approve of us…some will love us for us when the truth is we honestly do not know who we are. We need a GOOD BATH.
I needed a good bath. I needed to be soaked in God’s truth.
The word of God is powerful enough to combat every caustic lie spoken by you, to you, or over you. It confronts, convicts, and conquers every thought and imagination that is not in line with God’s view. God’s word holds the power to demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and takes captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
Let’s make a conscious decision to steep ourselves in God’s truth today. We are defenseless without Him and His word. We need His spirit to steer us on this life journey. We need to remember His promises. We need to believe His promises. We need to live out His promises.
Ask God to cleanse your heart and renew your mind. Allow His grace transform not just what you see but how you see! Allow His love move you to a life of contentment!
The enemy within is already defeated.
Living a life prescribed by God – Himself, may never bring you great acclaim. You may never see your name in lights or be recognized for the difference that you have made but know this:
- You are smart enough.
- You are pretty enough.
- You are connected enough.
- You have special talents.
- Some will listen to you.
- God is your source.
- There are those who will approve.
- You’re investing time.
- You’re built for this task.
- You are strong.
- You are the right package.
- You are enough.
- You are worthy of LOVE.
Each Scar tells a Story…Each tear bears witness… God has heard & will respond according to His likeness
Below are a few resources that can help us understand and the defeat the enemy within:
- The Battlefield of The Mind by Joyce Meyer
- Lies Women Believe and The Truth That Sets Them Free by Nancy DeMoss
- So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore
- Unglued by Lysa TerKeurst
- She Reads Truth