The Enemy Within

The Enemy Within

I live with it. I sleep with it. I eat with it. I work with it. I cuddle and caress it and rarely do I confront it. You know–The enemy within.

The lies created in the septic places of my heart. The lies spewed about me that seem to bombard my mind. Each an intentional gesture whose goal is to distract me, distort truth, and ultimately plan my destruction.

As I take time to reflect on all that I have done and all that I wanted to do, I realize that there are many aspirations to I wanted to accomplish that I talked myself out of. I formulated excuses of every kind and variable to squash the dreams that I had for myself and those I knew God had for me. It went something like this:

  • You are not smart enough.
  • You are not pretty enough.
  • You are not connected enough.
  • You have no special talents.
  • Who’s going to listen to you?
  • Your resources are limited.
  • Your friends and family will disapprove.
  • You’re wasting time.
  • It’s too hard.
  • You’re too big.
  • You’re too short.
  • You are not enough.
  • You are not worthy of LOVE

 

My mind waged war against me and frankly I thought it was winning, I shirked back into a corner and stayed. I did nothing. I ebbed and flowed and adapted to whatever came my way. I did not take initiative, rarely gave my opinion, and cried myself a river…Yes, I hosted my very on pity party and all were invited. I focused on everything I did not have and all the things that I did wrong. I ignored the things that I had, the gifts that I received, and the awesome community surrounding me. I believed the lies to be truth.

I denied that I too was valuable…that I was indeed special.

Daily, we steer at our reflection in the mirror and we pick on ourselves. We identify each imperfection and spend an exorbitant amount of time and resources trying to fix them or change them. We become our greatest critic. Who we are today never seems to be enough. We strive for approval. We strive for acceptance. We strive for love…..YES …LOVE!

We manipulate in ways to ensure that someone will look at us….someone will approve of us…some will love us for us when the truth is we honestly do not know who we are. We need a GOOD BATH. 

I needed a good bath. I needed to be soaked in God’s truth.

The word of God is powerful enough to combat every caustic lie spoken by you, to you, or over you. It confronts, convicts, and conquers every thought and imagination that is not in line with God’s view. God’s word holds the power to demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and takes captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Let’s make a conscious decision to steep ourselves in God’s truth today. We are defenseless without Him and His word. We need His spirit to steer us on this life journey. We need to remember His promises. We need to believe His promises. We need to live out His promises.

God's Promises are Yes

 

 

Ask God to cleanse your heart and renew your mind. Allow His grace transform not just what you see but how you see! Allow His love move you to a life of contentment!

The enemy within is already defeated.

Living a life prescribed by God – Himself, may never bring you great acclaim. You may never see your name in lights or be recognized for the difference that you have made but know this:

 

 

  • You are smart enough.
  • You are pretty enough.
  • You are connected enough.
  • You have special talents.
  • Some will listen to you.
  • God is your source.
  • There are those who will approve.
  • You’re investing time.
  • You’re built for this task.
  • You are strong.
  • You are the right package.
  • You are enough.
  • You are worthy of LOVE.

 

Each Scar tells a Story…Each tear bears witness… God has heard & will respond according to His likeness

Below are a few resources that can help us understand and the defeat the enemy within:

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  • Danielle K

    This really resonates with me…we really are our worst enemy sometimes with negative thoughts.

  • Heather

    This is beautifully written and has great reminders for everyone! Thanks for sharing!

  • Beautiful post! Thank you so much for sharing!

  • Jennifer Pritchard

    Great post to help move passed negative thoughts. Thanks!

  • Thank you for such a beautiful post!

  • Girl UPcycled

    Thanks for the great post, I really needed to hear this this week. We are are worst enemy at times aren’t we.

  • Caroline Barnes

    Great post, really motivational! We are always harder on ourselves than any one else.

  • Tara Joy

    Yes! This post is so on point! Soak in Gods truth! I was reading a book the other day and it suggested making a list of how you feel about your self and situation and then combating it with Gods word and writing them down so that when that thought comes up again you’ll have the verse right there to say : No thats not true, God says I am fearfully and wonderfully made.. etc. God is really pushing on my heart to start that list for myself!

  • Nikki @ www.MBAsahm.com

    wonderful post 🙂 It’s such a shame that we really are our worst critic. It’s a scary thought to think how much we hold ourselves back just by having bad thoughts! Thanks for the post 🙂 Very thoughtful!

  • Katie

    Greater is He who lives in you than HE that lives in the world. The enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy and my oh my has he ever done a good number on us all. Great reminder to take back what is rightfully our when we profess Jesus as Lord!

  • Natalie Mitts

    Thanks for sharing, Kim! This is a great reminder. We are always enough, because we are who He intended us to be. As long as we are following His path, what we do matters.

  • What a great post. Thank you for sharing.

  • Samantha

    this is so good, and a much-needed message for many! I love how you pointed it back to the importance of soaking ourselves in God’s truth.

  • What a wonderful message. It comes at time when I am struggling to know if I am enough:( Thanks for the reminder!

  • I always say that every person has a story as well. When we engage with others it’s important to remember, like when it might be an unfriendly cashier, etc. I go out of my way to be extra nice and look them in the eyes and smile. You never know what they might be going through. I’m a fan of the Joel Osteen book “I Declare” which addresses the enemy within issues. Thanks for sharing this, Kim. Awesome.

  • Kim Seghers

    Hi Kim ! Another beautiful post and, well written . We are all our own worst enemies. This is such a great message! Thank you for sharing.

  • Danielle Dunn

    Amazing post, Kim! so what I needed to read this week! My mind has been waging war on my heart and I have been very discouraged! Letting God love me when I am doubting myself <3

  • Shannon Casbeer Marburger

    Your words just touch my soul! You have such positive affirmations.

  • Kimberly Bolden

    Ladies,
    Thank you so much for your kind words. It’s been a crazy 24 hours and I am unable to respond to each of your comments individually but be Encouraged: God knows you by name and He know what’s best for you. He desires to satisfy you with good things. Continue to tell your redemption story!

  • Hello – This is wonderful encouragement and I needed this TODAY. God is so faithful that He will send you exactly what you need. I too have experienced those same feelings as I am confident so many others have as well.

    Love when you said, “Each Scar tells a Story…Each tear bears witness… God has heard & will respond according to His likeness.”

    Thank you for encouraging me today!

  • You are so right. It is so important to believe the truth! 🙂 I think this is something we all need to hear. God bless! 🙂

  • Amanda Marie

    Wow! Thanks for the inspirations! It is important that we speak positive truths to ourselves to remind the enemy who we are!!! Thank you!
    -{AmandaMade}-

  • Simply Rachel

    What a great read! I really needed to read this today. I’ve REALLY been struggling with my inner voice lately. Lies that are not of God! Thank you!

  • hellosunriseblog

    Such a good word. We are so quick to believe those lies of the enemy. Thanks for sharing the TRUTH! 🙂

  • WOW! Very powerful and such a good reminder. Often times we are stuck in the wrong mentality state of mind and space. It’s good to stop and do!

    Thanks for sharing this.

    Janelle

  • Girl UPcycled

    I found it ironic when I read what this post was about because when I first arrived at your blog and saw your photo I was immediately drawn to your photo like I am drawn to stare at a beautiful butterfly or something of that nature, just stunning really…..isn’t it amazing how we as woman view ourselves…we can be our worst enemy at times it seems, God bless you and all of us who fight this battle, great post

  • kristie

    It’s easy to identify with the list of negatives. The enemy within is the thief of joy. I look forward to following your encouraging words.

  • Melody Pittman

    What a lovely way with words you have! This is a powerful message that so many people need to hear, and God has given you his voice, empowering you to spread his word and strength. What a blessing!

  • Occasionally Crafty

    Wonderful post! I love how you say- the enemy is already defeated!

  • Alli Smith

    The enemy’s defeated and under my feet! But I have to constantly renew my mind to keep him there. Great words!!

  • Antoinette Sykes

    Kim — this is ON time! I love the transparency and the Truth to which you speak. God is my all in all – My Lord! And without Him, I know I’d be a wreck. I’ve learned to truly resist the enemy — actively! He will flee. He’s powerless and laughable at his best attempts. Keep at it! Love it! #Faithpreneurs #StandingTallRevolution

  • My pastor just spoke on this on yesterday. I refuse to believe the lies of the enemy. I am who GOD says I am. God’s word is TRUTH! Thank you for sharing His word!

  • Self doubt is so powerful. You have to double your positive thoughts just to level out the negative. I love this. Thank you so much. I needed to read this. 🙂

  • Kim Seghers

    I think I commented on this post before but, have you thought about writing a motivational book? You write so well. I love reading your blog.

  • Beth

    Thank you for sharing this beautiful message!

  • Thank God that He is the one who tells us who we are! I struggle with my enemy at times too, but that is where you have to remember the fight is not with us, but with Him we can do all things! Great post.

  • Love the resources you provided 🙂 I follow she reads truth via IG and love it! I struggle with the enemy inside – aka fear and doubt, but God has a wonderful way of showing/reassuring me that I’m exactly where I should be so I can get to where I want to be 🙂
    Linh
    http://abeautifulrawr.com

  • It’s so important to know the work and believe what it says about God’s promises for us! It’s the perfect weapon to silence our own internal critics.

  • Tara Jefferson

    “I needed a good bath. I needed to be soaked in God’s truth.” Amen to this!

  • Jamie Yonash

    Such a good reminder…we are so special to God…we just forget sometimes!

  • Amber C

    I love this! I battle daily with the liars in my own mind and it’s a constant struggle to not listen to them! But I know God’s truth brings me victory! What a powerful message and a great reminder! God bless you!

  • “Each scar tells a story.” I love it. AMEN!!

  • This is beautiful. Even though I know all these things, it is so good to come across reinforcement such as this. Thank you for being so open and for sharing.

  • Jessica Rae

    Such a great post! We could be so hard on ourselves sometimes.

  • Hope Bridgeman

    Thank you so much for writing this. What truth and so beautifully put. Thank you for being a light and letting the Christ use you to remind us of His truth!

  • Aline Matiazzo

    Great post! This is so truth. The hardest battles to fight, are the ones within ourselves.

  • Shannon Peterson

    It’s so easy to get down on yourself, its so important to think positively and build yourself back up! Thank you for sharing such beautiful words!

  • Lauryn Lasko

    self-shaming is such a terrible thing! I am glad you are talking about it. What an inspiration.

  • I love this! It’s so true! God and Christ see so much more of us than we do. They see our true potential and want us to see ourselves through their eyes.

  • Nadeen

    Wonderful and Amen! We are almost taught to be negative and ficus on all our flaws vs celebrating all the positives!

  • It can feel like walking through quicksand trying to pull out of what
    our culture, as well as family and friends for some, tells us to be. I
    know I struggle with it, and I have to learn to appreciate who I am and
    how I am made, not to fit some predetermined idea in someone’s, other
    than my own, worldview.

  • Christine St.Vil

    Whew! Kim this was powerful because I could relate to so much of it. One of my coaches recently had us make a video of the lies we told ourselves about ourselves and the new person we were becoming. It was a difficult but powerful experience.

  • Tara Joy

    I always love to take time and really soak in your posts, so much truth here. Oh how the enemy loves to spew those lies but we know the truth!! The truth is that God loves us, as we are. I keep a truth list to combat any lie I hear in my head.

  • Aisha Leuthardt

    What a beautiful post! Thank you for sharing. I am so thankful for God’s truths and promises. And His faithfulness. The enemy seeks to kill and destroy but our God comes to give us life and that to the fullest! I am so thankful that I do not have to be in bondage to lies!

  • Rebecca Jones

    Self-criticism can be such a hard thing to overcome. I’m working diligently on breaking a habit that I used to survive growing up in a dysfunctional family, which was beating myself up in order to pull myself up by my bootstraps and move on. Now that I’m out of the battle zone, it’s not always easy to be kind to myself, but I am trying!

  • Rebekah Montgomery

    This is such a powerful message that we can all take to heart! One of my biggest struggles is thinking negatively about myself and believing lies about my worth. It’s so important that we continually renew our minds and remember who God says that we are. Thank you for sharing, friend.